You Are Not a Brand. You Are Beloved.

By October 14, 2014 9 Comments
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“Joy does not simply happen to us.
We have to choose joy and keep choosing it everyday.”
~ Henri Nouwen
{a quiet find in the fog one morning}

Eric and I were driving to Carmel for a weekend anniversary getaway last month.

It was a welcome reprieve after three months of releasing my new book, Finding Spiritual Whitespace.  I had completed more than 20 interviews and even more articles to get the word out about the book.

I had journeyed through an unexpected two years of debilitating anxiety from reliving painful memories from childhood trauma, as a result of writing the manuscript. So giving birth to this book is something I’m deeply grateful for.

But, after surrounding myself with a lot “spiritual whitespace” — rest and rejuvenation — to heal and write this book, I found the sudden re-entry into the blogosphere noisy and anxiety generating.

I reached a crossroad that perhaps you may be standing in.

Should I keep pushing myself to produce and perform — fearful of what the consequences might be if I stopped to slow?

Or should I listen to the quiet Voice of Love — God’s voice — to make room to feed my soul and cultivate my experience of God in my everyday life rather than what I could produce for Him?

Is there a decision you’re facing that makes you fearful of how relevant you would become – if you put the care of your soul in priority? Read More

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In the Bitter, There is Also Sweetness (A Soul-to-Soul Conversation)

By On October 9, 2014

{me and my “er hu”. the chinese two-string violin. one of my favorite spiritual whitespaces – redwood trees where i recorded today’s soul-to-soul video for you} It’s funny what can happen when… Read More

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Your Rightful Place: Invited Rather Than Driven

By On October 6, 2014

Last week was an i-need-flowers kind of week.  I bought some hydrangeas last Monday and they became my guiding tone for the week. The flowers helped me stay in touch with the beauty and the… Read More

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{Soul Rest Sunday} Wandering. I Will Love You Freely

By On October 5, 2014

“i will heal your {wandering}. i will love you freely. you will be like dew to Israel, you will blossom like the lily…” hosea 14:4 {morning quiet under a cypress tree }… Read More

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5 Questions to Ask Before Giving Up on Your Dreams

By On October 2, 2014

 even when the hills are scorched by summer heat, beauty finds a way to bloom. {a quiet find on a morning hike} I was buckling myself in for a four-hour layover flight from Dallas… Read More

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Be Here Now. A More Beautiful Place

By On September 25, 2014

{be here now. journal given as a gift by janine crum} “Whether you succeed or not is irrelevant Making the unknown known is what is important.” Georgia O’keefe Did you ever wonder… Read More

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Your Daily Good: Why Single-Tasking is Good for Your Soul (Say Yes to Rest)

By On September 22, 2014

the little girl in you and me… what she loves to do… jesus with her together {shared by kindred @michelleviscuse on instagram from our #spiritualwhitespace #yestorest community.} It’s a new week and… Read More

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{Soul Rest Sunday} Sing Me a New Song

By On September 21, 2014

you are good soil and I am your seed. {what I hear God whispering to me} new moon rising in the twilight    I want to sing a new song. But I can’t be… Read More

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Sparkle. Psst…It’s a Blog Birthday! {Everlasting Light Jewelry Giveaway}

By On September 19, 2014

{5 years ago, I cried bitter tears here into the sand, feeling weary and small. I started writing & a blog named FaithBarista was born. asilomar state beach, pacific grove, ca} Today, we’re… Read More

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the Anniversary. the song of soul intimacy. whitespace for couples.

By On September 17, 2014

  Oh, who would have ever known it Could be this easy? I was a long, long way off. Then just like that it was over, Everything I knew of love… I… Read More

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An Intimate Encounter: Choose

By On September 16, 2014

{page in my prayer journal 5/27/12 when my panic attacks first began & i could not stop them. i wrote a page of “i choose”.} Two years ago, when I was just beginning… Read More

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My One Wild Desire: Say Yes to Rest Monday (An Soulful Invitation)

By On September 15, 2014

{soulful, beautiful hand art created by Annie Barnett. Be SmallStudios} There’s been something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time. But, I’ve been afraid to begin. I’ve been afraid because the… Read More

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Because some days you need a double shot of faith