“Let nothing disturb you. Nothing distress you. While all things fade away, God is unchanging.” Prayer of St. Teresa
I’m trying to type words onto the screen.
But, there is only blank space staring back at me.
If you’ve ever experienced anxiety — the kind that wraps around your heart with the cloak of stress — you’d understand how it can tether you back.
It keeps you silent.
Keeps you in your home.
And on the hours or days you need to be with others, you may end up retreating from being seen. Or heard.
You are working hard. You are getting things done.
But, you might feel like I do, unsure if things can really be different.
Whether you can really be known.
This is soul wearying.
A Place For You
Because you may have been hurt, like I’ve been — by words that wound you still — that made you regret that you shared.
Words that made you feel even smaller than how you’re already feeling.
Words that make you feel pressured to get over what you can’t get over.
Words that make you feel more alone, standing on the outside of where you want to be: belonging, loved and understood.
It’s then, at that moment, you and I chance upon a glimpse into our soul.
To the little girl inside us who is broken, feeling cast off and lonely…
To be continued…
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Bonnie, thank you for writing. Walking beside in your healing, in my healing, too. I love you!
thank you for sharing. I am trying to do this very thing. This brought me great encouragement today.
Right now all I know is I feel fear an can’t breath. I know The Lord did not give us a spirit of fear I’ve so wondered why I’m going through this I cannot help the way my childhood was so bad that I have to be punished or did I do something wrong or do I not have faith somebody please please tell me!!!!
Bonnie, your words speak directly to my heart. In fact, your words give my heart words that I didn’t know were there. I feel like your struggles are so similar to mine. I am longing to give “existence” to that young girl in me who went away so long ago but it feels so unnatural because she doesn’t look like the false self that I put on in her place. It feels sometimes like I’m finding a new me, but I think it’s the original that has hidden away for years. Be encouraged that your words, shared so honestly from your heart, truly encourage my heart and give me courage to believe for that young place in me. Blessings to you! Joannie Koch